Umi no shizukesa (final chapter) part 2/2

[matsuaurore]

Title: Umi no shizukesa (the ocean's silence)
Author: matsuaurore
Beta: My mokohno <3
Pairings: Juntoshi, Matsumiya, Sakuraiba (side pairing)
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: I just own them in my dreams xD
Summary: Ohno looses his voice after a traumatic experience. He is desperate and alone, rejected by the others because of his silence. One day, he meets Jun, a young diver addicted to the sea. With Jun's help, Ohno discovers another world where the silence is the most precious thing. Together, they learn another language: the language of the sea.





PART 2/2

Ohno ran. He ran like he never did, tears rolling down his cheeks like a waterfall. He felt betrayed, he felt fooled. His heart was aching so much. It was horrible. All his nightmares were coming back, pictures invading his mind, driving him crazy. Ohno ran to the beach, the only place where he felt safe. He sat on the edge of the water, crying loudly his pain. Suddenly, a shy scream made him jump and Ohno raised his head.

"Hinata..." Ohno approached the dolphin and stroked its head. "I remember everything, Hina but it's too painful..." Ohno cried, hugging the dolphin.


Jun caught his phone with panic and dialed the number with shaking hands.

"Moshi mosh?"
"Kazu, it's me, I need your help, now!" Jun almost shouted in the phone.


Ohno's face was buried in his knees, the sleepy man was still crying loudly. He couldn't stop. He couldn't believe Jun was lying to him since he woke up. He couldn't believe Jun was lying when he made love to him in this so tender and wonderful way. Ohno couldn't believe Jun was this mysterious boyfriend and he never had a brother. Everything was a lie. An awful and deep lie. All his feelings for Jun were built on a fake truth.

"Why?" Ohno whispered in a broken voice.
"You're here." A voice made Ohno jump and he turned his head to see Nino, looking at him with kind eyes.
"Leave me alone." Ohno replied.
"It's funny, Jun told me the same words than you at the same place a month ago." Nino chuckled, sitting next to Ohno.
"Is it a lie too?" Ohno mumbled.
"I know what Jun did wasn't good but he was desperate, he loves you too much." Nino said in a soft voice.
"Yes, and he lied to me for one month, playing with my memories and my feelings." Ohno smirked in a sarcastic voice.
"No. He did that because he thought it was the only way for both of you."
"Stupid." Ohno chuckled.
"Love can make you stupid." Nino laughed.
"So, is it true? Everything I wrote in this notebook and I remember?"
"Yes. Matsuda and Yamada did that to you but you found your voice again thanks to Jun."
"But Jun told me I was his brother, why?"
"Because during two years while you were in coma, he stayed next to you, hoping for your return. When you woke up, you didn't remember him."
"But why didn't he tell me the truth?"
"Because he was afraid. You didn't remember your past, you found your voice again and he was afraid you would leave him if he told you the truth."
"But..."
"Telling you he was your brother allowed him to stay by your side. He wanted to win your trust before telling you who he really was. He didn't want to lose you nor hurt you." Nino said softly.
"But he did. How did he imagine I would feel, learning I was raped, that a man raped me in front of my parents and killed them after, under my eyes?! Discovering I was mute, raped by a student for eight months. And learning he was my boyfriend, the one in my dreams, the only one able to touch me, to make love to me. How did you think I would react?!" Ohno asked in a weak voice.
"I know it's horrible, Ohchan. I know actually you just want to die but please, don't push Jun away. Don't reject him. He did that for you, even if it wasn't the right thing to do but it was for you. He loves you more than anything, you saved him this day."
"I saved him?"
"Yes. Before you met Jun, he had a boyfriend. They were in love, everything was perfect but one day, Yusuke changed. He became violent and very jealous. He was cheating on Jun but couldn't accept when he was seeing other persons than him next to him. Jun suffered but stayed with him, love blurring his view, his reason. Yusuke started to beat him, at the beginning it was just some slaps but with the time, it became punches. Jun accepted it during three years but one day, Yusuke went too far and he finished at hospital in a critic state.  We called the police but Yusuke had already disappeared."
"You let Yusuke hit Jun during three years?!"
"We didn't know. When Yu was making visible marks on his body, he forbade Jun to see us. We discovered the truth when he was at hospital."
"But why does Jun was staying with this bastard?"
"Because love was blurring his judgment. He was with Yusuke for 7 years before he changed and maybe Jun hoped he would be back to normal."
"What happened, then?"
"It took six months for Jun to recover and after this story, he didn't stay the same. But something saved him, the same thing that changed you."
"Eh?"
"The sea. Jun was a born a diver, he always dived with Masaki but stopped when he met Yusuke. After that, he returned to the sea and it helped him to forget. When he met you, he fully overcame his trauma because he found someone to protect, someone to save and love." Nino smiled, looking at the horizon.
"You love him, ne?"
"Yes, with all my soul."
"Why are you doing this for me, then?"
"Because I want Jun to be happy and he will be happy only if you are here. You know, I was there after Yusuke left, I was there for him during lots of years. I know Jun loved me but he never saw me. He never saw the Ninomiya Kazunari who was loving him more than anything. I don't blame him nor you for that, heart has his reasons that the reason ignores. He can't force his heart to love me. I fought for him, during ten years but now, I'm tired, I just want him to be happy, to find the love of his life. And this love, Ohchan, it's you. Don't leave him, don't do what Yusuke did to him, he wouldn't bear it."
"I never thought you could speak like that." Ohno chuckled.
"It will be the first and only time I'm doing this." Nino smirked, blushing.
"You're more sensitive than I thought. Thank you, Nino."
"You're welcome. But I warn you. If you hurt Jun, don't ever appeared in front of me or I will kill you."
"Thank you, Nino." Ohno laughed softly.
"I leave you alone, you need some time to think." Nino stood up and left the beach.

Look up at the sky, see the stars?
They're just up there shining beautifully

Listen to the stars, can you hear them?
They're just up there twinkling humbly

Ohno stared at the sea, the sunset shining on the water. He didn't jump when some hours later, Jun sat down next to him. Ohno smiled softly and took the diver's hand, laying his head on the younger's shoulder after his boyfriend had put his necklace around his neck. The blue pearl in the middle was shining more than ever with the sun.

Shooting star, fall this way and please wipe your tears
I just want you to stay here smiling peacefully

Look up at the sky, see the dawn breaking?
Our new days are about to start here

Ohno never felt as calm as today because even if he remembered his traumas, he knew the sea would always be there for him with someone who was loving him more than anything.
We said the eyes were the mirror's soul, maybe the sea was the mirror of the heart.
Whatever life would impose to him, Ohno knew there was a place where nobody would judge him, a place where the respect and the silence were the most precious things.

Bathed in sunlight, I want to protect your smile
Here with you, shining so beautifully now
Let's stay hand in hand and keep on walking together forever

"Satoshi..." Jun started but Ohno cut him off, putting his finger on his lips.
"I'm sorry for what I told you earlier, I felt betrayed but Nino opened my eyes and I understand why you did that."
"I'm so sorry." Jun whispered, tears shining in his eyes. "And I lo..."
"Tss. Let me start, Jun. Let me tell you these words I wasn't able to tell you before this accident." Ohno stroked his cheek, looking straight into the younger's eyes. "I love you, Jun. More than anything. You did so many things, I owe you so much. I can't explain what I feel but you have to know this feeling is big, indestructible and amazing. I love you, Jun. I love every parts of you now and forever." Ohno whispered shyly, blushing.

Jun smiled like he never did. The diver simply nodded and hugged his boyfriend tightly, looking at the ocean. They didn't need words, the beautiful horizon was speaking for us.

"Umi no shizukesa." Ohno whispered to the beautiful horizon his grip tightening around his boyfriend's hand who kissed his neck tenderly.


~Owari~

A/N: T.T here is the end of my fic, I hope you enjoyed it like I loved writing it. I'm so happy and sad at the same time xD I put a part of myself in this story because of my passion, the sea (and the diving, of course xD) with my two lovely ichibans xD to be honest I was planning to kill Ohchan but at the last time I changed my mind. I really couldn't kill my baby chubby boy, ne? I think some readers would kill me if I did that lol XD I hope you don't mind this fluffy end, I'm too sensitive to kill one of them (mostly after my yama fic, A broken promise), it would make me cry the whole day xD
I want to thank the readers for reading my bad English and making so lovely comments (a big kiss for my Bory who told me so beautiful things about my Juntoshi, thank you, dear <3). And I would like to send a wave of kisses for my mokohno who checked my baka mistakes to make this fic a bit better xD thank you very much, dear <3.

See you soon for another Juntoshi ;)

Comments

[mokohno.livejournal.com]

I thought you might want me to comment here, so that I do the same you did with my fictions =D *I mean I put a proper comment on one of them finally!*

I know I've not been much of a good beta for this, I took a lot of time, but I liked this fiction a lot! Well, sometimes I REALLY wanted to tell Jun to WAKE THE FUCK UP but well.... XD In the end, Kazu did! Well done xD

This fiction was really dark, right? I mean, wit everything that happens to Ohchan, poor him, but I kind of had the feeling that Ohchan let these things happen to him without fighting, and it was a bit sad.... I think... As if he didn't want to fight back against life anymore, you know...

But I loved Aiba's character! He is the hero of this story, isn't he? He helped Ohchan and Jun through everything, he supported Jun when everyone was against him, he supported Ohchan when he found out about his past, I really like him in your fic x)

One thing I have to say, I might be cruel to Ohchan when I write fictions, but you are more than me! There were so many rape scenes in this fic, more than I could bear, I admit >.< Otherwise, I liked it a lot! Jun and Ohno helping each other through life, isn't it the most wonderful thing there is? xD

I know my comment is reeeeaaaally messed up, but that's how it is inside of my head, you know me x)
But I don't want you to think that I didn't like it, because I know you did think that at some point, because I DID ♥ I mean it >.<
Good job =) Love you~~~ ♥

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

Que dire? Tout d'abord, MERCI ARIGATOU THANK YOU GRACIAS.... Pour m'avoir checké cette fic xD alors pour commencer, je tenais a te dire un grand merci parce que ca m'avais vachement touché que tu me proposes de la checker alors que je t'avais pas demandé parce que j'avais peur que tu la trouves nulle ou que ca te gonfle xD donc un grand merci pour ton travail, car je sais que c'est du boulot de checker une fic chapitree <3 je sais que je t'ai fait chier pour que tu la commentes mais c'est parce que je voulais vraiment ton avis sincere dessus car j'adore tes fics et tout conseil est bon a prendre xD et puis comme toi et moi on a les memes gouts en matiere de fics, j'avais envie de savoir ce que tu en pensais xD merci pour ton comm, j'ai tout saisis ce que tu cherchais a dire (comme quoi que tu sais t'exprimer pour faire des comms xD) et tu as saisis certaines choses, comme par ex, Ohchan qui au bout d'un moment se laisse aller parce qu'il n'en peut juste plus de la vie pauvre bebe T.T xD j'avoue que j'ai fais pire que toi au niveau je martyrise Nohno xD mais j'aime ecrire sur la violence, le trauma et le fragile psychologique (I don't know if you understand what I mean xD)je te ferai un long com sur Pride a la fin car j'ai trop de choses a dire sur cette fic donc je prefere faire un comm groupé xD(comme sur fb xD) merci encore pour ce check, ca m'a fait super plaisir que tu me le proposes et que tu aimes <3 j'espere que mes prichains ecrits te plairont aussi si jamais tu les lis bien sur xD et puis, tkte pas, t'as fait du tres bon boulot, et les fois ou t'as mis plus de temps, c'est pas grave, on a tous une vie a coté de LJ xDDD j'espere pouvoir ameliorer mon anglais au niveau grammatical, pour ecriee moins "francais" si tu vois ce que je veux dire xD sinon bah encore merci pour ton boulot et ton super gentil comm <3 Sukida yo, hontoni daisuki desu xD *derniere ptite ref a Nohno xD

[mokohno.livejournal.com]

De riiiieeen~~ Le plus chiant dans le betage (nouveau mot xD) c'est qu'il faut lire TOUT en mode attentif, alors que moi ça m'arrive sur toutes les fics que je lis de lire quelques passages en diagonale parfois, du coup voilà xD Mais si tu as encore besoin d'aide pour des fics, tu peux me les envoyer =) Ça me ferait plaisir xD Enfin ça me dérange pas de te les corriger, juste que je peux pas promettre de le faire tout de suite quoi ^^" Mais en tout cas je prendrais moins de temps que j'en ai pris dernièrement, c'est sûr! ^^" Et comme ça je suis sûre de les lire u_u'"

Je comprends tout à fait ce que tu veux dire, j'aime aussi beaucoup écrire sur la violence et les traumas xD Mais je pense qu'on a une façon différente d'exprimer ça, du coup c'est intéressant de voir d'autres points de vue x) Après perso j'aime bien appliquer la règle de Joe March qui est de ne jamais écrire sur un sujet qu'on connait XD Enfin bref... Voilà!

Sinon un petit message OSEF: ce serait cool qu'on se voit quand même xD Bisous~~ ♥

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

J'aime ton nouveau mot xD merciiii c'est gentil mais en fait je sais que j'oserai pas te demander de chzcker parce que imagine t'aimes pas la fic, le truc trop chiant de prendre du temps a corriger qq chose que t'aime pas xD oui faut qu'on se voit <3 mais comme on travaille tputes les deux de notre coté, c'est Shaud xD ok c'etaot pourri comme blague xD bisousssss <3 ps: j'ai ENFIN fini mon ohmiyama mais je sais tjr pas qui faire gagner xDDD fuck these pairings xDDD

[mokohno.livejournal.com]

Tu sais qu'il faut vraiment que tu arrêtes de penser à ma place, je te l'ai dis 50 fois! Comment tu peux savoir si je vais aimer la fic ou pas? En plus d'une façon général j'aime toutes les fics tant qu'elles rentrent dans mes critères (que tu connais parfaitement XD) Après forcément si tu me donnes du Sakuraiba ou du Matsumiya à checker, là... Voilà quoi ^^"
Enfin je trouve ça bête de pas oser pour ça, surtout que voir les fautes que tu fais, ça te permet de t'améliorer, et puis c'est toujours mieux de poster une fic checkée, non? Enfin c'est comme tu veux ^^

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

Non je pense pas a ta place, je me dis juste "ouais si jamais elle aime pas xD ca serait la crotte quoi xD" xD et puis apres meme si ca rentre dans tes criteres, si jamais l'histoire t'interesse pas bah la ca serait chiant de checker pour toi xD non comme je voulais commencer a poster mon ohmiyama, je voulais pas te demander de checker car tu viens de finir la juntoshi alors ca fait du taffe comme meme, non? XD

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

*et moi aussi jdr Aiba dedans xD pour les memes raisons que toi xD je voulais qu'il apporte un peu de douceur dans cette fic de brutes xDDD mais qu'il temoigne sa gentillesse et son amitié a sa facon, je l'aime trop bebe la dedans xDDD I'm crazy I know xDDD et je comprends ton enervement contre Jun, heureusement que kazu etait la pour le reveiller xDDD dans ma prochaine ohmiyama, ca sera l'inverse pour le coup xD ce sera Jun qui tentera de reveiller ce ette pute de nino xDDD chacun son tour dans la connerie xDDD c'est arashi apres tout xDDD

[datz-20.livejournal.com]

So love this.thank you for sharing

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

Thank you <3

[toups-nino.livejournal.com]

Et bien quelle fin !
Je suis bien contente que tu ais décidé de garder Ohno en vie ... parce que sinon, oui je crois que je t'aurais tué moi même xD (surtout après la fin horrible de A broken promise) ...

Toshi se souvient de tout, en même temps, il vaut mieux qu'il se souvienne de son passé. C'est mieux pour lui, même si son passé est horrible. Parce que sinon, il aurait recherché toute sa vie le pourquoi du comment de son passé ... (je sais pas si je suis claire ^^").
Jun qui se dit être son petit frère ... OK ... Je suis restée un peu sur les fesses quand j'ai lu ça, mais après tout pourquoi pas. Il a trouvé un moyen de rester auprès de Toshi.
Mais ça se complique car bien sûr ils sont pas frères mais bine amoureux l'un de l'autre. J'ai trouvé ça plutôt marrant quand Toshi commence à ressentir de "drôles de sentiments" envers son "frère" et qu'il se l'interdit xD
Mais c'est pas ça qui l'empêche de l'embrasser et plus si affinité sans même savoir que c'est pas vraiment son frère ... xD

La réaction d'Ohno quand il découvre tout m'a fait peur. Normal qu'il soit en colère, on lui a menti pendant tout ce temps ... Mais j'ai eu peur qu'il fasse une bêtise.
Heureusement que Super Nino (après SuperMario ... XD) est là !
C'est beau ce qu'il dit sur Jun. Il l'aime vraiment beaucoup et pour bine faire comprendre tout ça à Ohno, il dévoile complètement ses sentiments, lui qui est si fier.
J'ai beaucoup aimé aussi le baiser que Jun donne à Kazu (Matsumyia fan oblige xD). On sait très bien que Jun ne l'aime pas comme ça, mais il l'aime tout de même et on dirait que c'est une façon de le remercier pour tout ce que Kazu a fait pour lui et Ohno durant tout ce temps. C'est n peu un baiser d'adieu. Pour qu'enfin Nino puisse passer à autre chose. C'est ça que j'ai trouvé beau dans ce moment ^^

Sinon, la fin ! Je suis tellement contente ! J'adore les Happy Ends !
Le Juntoshi en force ! Ils sont adorables tous les deux ensemble <3

(oui oui, j'ai craqué, j'aime le Juntoshi maintenant, mais seulement quand c'est toi qui est aux commandes :p)

Merci encore une fois pour cette belle fic ! Il y avait de l'amour, du suspens, de l'action, de la joie, de la tristesse ... Beaucoup de larmes mais tout cela valait le coup pour le magnifique Happy End que tu leur as gentiment offert ^^

Gros Bisous Aurore !
J'attend ta prochaine fic avec impatience ! <3

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

XDDD merciiiiiiiiiii <3 oui, Matsumiya oblige xD je me demerde tjr pour caser du Matsumiya dans mes fics xD Ouais, Nino dechire sa race a la fin mais j'adore surtout Aiba quo soutient Jun du debut a la fin, vive Masaki xD je suis heureuse que ca t'ai plu car j'ai vraiment mis tout mon coeur dans cette fic xD Jun qui se ait passer pour son frere c'etait chelou mais c'etait vraiment pour gagner la confiance de Nohno cheri xD et au debut, sache que Ohchan devait mourir (dans l'accident de bateau ou dans son lit d'hosto xD) mais j'ai changé d'avis car je trouvais ca horrible et puis un happy end de temps en temps ca fait pas de mal xD sinon, merci d'avoir lu cette fic et de tjr fairz ces adorables comm dont tu as le secret xD je voudrais bien faire pareil avec tes fics mais comme tu n'as pas encore posté celle de la fac... XD merci encore et gros bisous <3 la prochaine fic sera une battle Yama vs Ohmiya xDDDD <3

[borylovearashi.livejournal.com]

kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
that was so cute so sweet so beautiful
so romantic *_*
u know i was so shocked when Jun told Oh-chan that he was his little brother i was like seriously Jun ????
i was really afraid of Oh-chan reaction when he will remember but thank God For Nino thank you so mush honey it was really good story i love it so much you are really good you should be a writer u know really thanks again and thank you for the happy ending *_* <<<< hug you i can't wait for more juntoshi thanks again ^_^
thank you for the kiss honey you welcome ..^_^.. please don't mention it you deserve more your fics always make me happy hontoni Arigato gozaimasu ^_^

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much dear <3<3<3 Of course you deserved the kiss, you always tell me so beautiful things about my stories and it touchs me so much thank youuuuu <3 I'm very happy you liked it, and yes, I had to wite a happy end xD a writer? Well, thank you very much but I don't know if I would be good xD I just put my feelings in every chapters and characters, writing is a passion, I think you can put so many things behind words, that'swhy I write with my heart xD thank you again for following and commenting this fic dear <3 ARIGATOU <3

[borylovearashi.livejournal.com]

you welcome honey
thanks to you too ^_^

[adeyakana.livejournal.com]

Juntoshi happy together :)
I'm so happy about it
thank you to Nino for open Ohno heart to Jun
thank you for this

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

You're welcome ^^ Thank you very much for following and always commenting <3

[smile-arigatou.livejournal.com]

I normally don't like reading Juntoshi because they're my least favorite pairing, but I've been following this story since the beginning and you may have very well changed my mind on that.

This story was so beautiful! The way you wrote it, with the trauma and the pain and the calm and sweet moments really made it amazing. Definately going into my favs list.

I hope you'll continue to write more stories like this! I loved it!!

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, it' the most beautiful thing you could tell me <3 I really love to write it and as for all my stories, I always put my heart in every words, that's why what you said made me cry because you saw these things behind it <3 my next series will be an Ohmiya and I wrote my feelings inside this new story again, I hope you will read it ^^ I'm happy you like my Juntoshi while it's your last pairing, it touchs me to know that. Thank you again for following and commenting this fic dear <3

[cleo-chuby.livejournal.com]

Feel happy that finally they will stay together forever ♡ they deserve it after so many incident to face :)

And I'm glad to explain what happen to Jun & Yusuke and u did it in great way ^^
Feel sorry to Nino bcoz at the end he still can't forget Jun...I will gladly accept u Kazu XD *slap my head*

Aaarrrghh~ feel so complicated when this series end...glad to know JunToshi happy but sad bcoz I lost some good JunToshi fic...hope u will write another JunToshi fics :) and thanks for ur hard-work ^^

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much <3 Yes, it broke my hert for Kazu because Matsumiya is also my favorite pairing but this time, juntoshi deserved to win xD My next fic will be an Ohmiya/Yama but I'm working on a new Juntoshi/Sakauraiba so, don't worry, I'll post another juntoshi xD I've written two os Juntoshi if you need some juntoshi fics to patient xDDD thank you very much for following amd commenting <3

[tempestade-13.livejournal.com]

After so much suffering love and friendship could triumph.
Juntoshi with a happy ending. ^ __ ^

I know this fic is about JunToshi but love Nino here, he is the perfect friend and lover, he is just perfect.
Thank you for writing and sharing

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

Thank you for following and comenting <3 I loved Nino too in this but the best was Aiba xD he really helped Jun xD

[vicco-vicky.livejournal.com]

waaaaa I love this fic!!!!
Ohno suffered so much but at the end he found happines with Jun!!!
Finaly Ohno remembered Jun... Jun is so happy now after 4 years...
I lovethem so much. And I love Aiba in this fic too. He was a great, great friend. And sakuraiba... <3 hihihi^^
I'm a Little sad because Nino end alone.. I'm sure Yamapi can take care of him xD

Thankd for your hard work and waiting for more Juntoshi and Sakuraiba!!!!^3^

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

XD yay, Aiba was a great friend, I loved him xD yes, Nino ends alone because he needs time to move on and forget his J T.T but yes, maybe Yamapi will catch his heart after all xD thank you very much for following and commenting this fic <3 see you soon for another sakuraiba/juntoshi or ohmiya xD

[athena-jun.livejournal.com]

your fic is so amazing XD I love it so much, Juntoshi is my favorite couple and read them in your fanfic makes me feel happy XD Nino is also cute and great, thanks for your fic. hope you will continue with Juntoshi fic more

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much, juntoshi is also my favorite pairing with matsumiya xD I love writing juntoshi and as I wrote lots of Ohmiya, I'm working on three new juntoshi xD I hope you'll read it and will like it xD I'm glad you liked this fic because I wrote it with my heart and was so sad when I ended it but every fic has an end, ne? XD thank you for following and reading <3

[tak0-9.livejournal.com]

i decided to read it again....

i can't count how many times my heart have to bear it, cracking every time, it hurts so much
i can't count how many times i cried


it's so beautiful....
this is a masterpiece, thank you :D, love your work

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

I'm very happy you liked it that much :D it was my first juntoshi at this time and I kind grew attached to it xD sometimes I miss writing this fic xD thank you for your very kind comment my dear <3

[hsiahsirafzi.livejournal.com]

Hi. You know what? You are amazing. Being able to write something so good so long. It could have been turn into a drama you know? It is amazing. I've been reading almost of your fics. It never let me down. I've been addicted to fics recently but finding one that matched your personality or could i say the way how you see things is hard. But then i found yours. I never got interested in reading multi chapter fics. Well i goes the same with yours at first. I read the one shot in the first place. Then i realised i couldn't have enough that i started to read everything. Your storyline matched me so well. In this story i'm so glad that you didn't kill ohchan. I almost cry. It will ne so sad if ohchan died. I love it even more because jun is my ichiban. Way to go girl. You rock!!! Hehe hmm i have a question on sakumoto fic titled beautiful asshole. When will you released another chapter? I mean is it one per week or one per two week? Like that. I really can't get enough of it. Sorry to comment on other title beside than this. But seriously you rock!!! Good luck

[matsuaurore.livejournal.com]

I'm really touched by your comment, it means a lot to me <3 I'm very happy you like my stories, this one was my first juntoshi and even if my englsih wasn't very good when I read it back, I still remember how much I loved to write this fic, I think it will stay one of the stories I loved the most to write :)
for beautiful asshole, it's normally one chapter per week, I try to post it every week not to make people wait too much but sometimes, I don't have the time to post xD
anyway, thank you for reading and commenting, dear <3