In your heart chapter 3

[matsuaurore]

Title: In your heart
Author: matsuaurore
Beta: andreja1989 thank you so much for your precious help <3
Pairings: Ohmiya, Yama, Nino/OC (man)
Rating: R for this chapter
Genre: Au, drama, romance, fantasy (I guess xD), fluff (slight)
Length: serie/multichapter
Summary: Two pasts, two painful stories. They are the same but yet so different. Nino, a big arrogant idol and Ohno a kind and shy amazing dancer. They live their lives but when Ohno meets the younger, the sleepy man will discover Nino’s dark past that the idol wanted to forget. One day Nino gets stuck in Ohno’s mind and he discovers that maybe the dancer is the only person who can really understand his pain. Maybe Ohno’s eternal sleepy smile hides a dark secret too.


Chapter 3: Memories

"Ohno-kun?" Nino began.
"Hun?"
"Why do you refuse to speak about your pain, why don't you want to share it with Jun, he is your best friend, no?"
"I... I can't... I don't want to be a burden for him and Masaki..."
"So~ I can listen to your story, you can rely on me if you want." Nino said softly.
"But..."
"Please, Ohno, share your grief with me, don't leave me with all this questions and worries about you, you need someone, I can't erase your pain but maybe I can help you feel better. Don't forget I feel your feelings and it's painful for me too even if I don't know your past." Nino implored.

Ohno blinked, surprised by his words. Never Nino showed this kindness to him. He opened his mouth but gave up... He wasn't ready. But there was something inside him which told him he should share his past with Nino. After all, they shared a special bond, a secret which will change their lives. Without knowing what, Ohno felt new feelings toward the idol. It was strange because he couldn't explain what sort of feelings that were. It wasn't friendship, it was more than that but at the same time, it wasn't love (he tried to persuade himself it wasn't love). There was a line between them, a thin but strong line. After all, they lived together, they shared their feelings, they felt the feelings of each other. When Ohno suffered, Nino was in pain and when it was Nino who suffered, Ohno suffered too. When Nino felt happiness, the older was happy and when Ohno felt joy, Nino could say he was the happiest man in the world.

When you lived through someone, through his feelings, a big change burned inside you, you wanted that this person would be happy, wouldn't cry but laugh. You didn't care about your own feelings, the most important was the happiness of the other. The two young men felt that and even if Nino liked to tease Ohno, he hated when the pain crossed his beautiful chocolate eyes. He could breathe worst thing if Ohno showed his smile. He could support the hell if Ohno was safe. His life was more precious than his own, even than the whole world. He knew he could kill for the sleepy man. But he didn't know Ohno felt the same way toward him. They didn't know if all these feelings were love, or not, they knew inside them it was love but were too stubborn to accept it. They needed time. After all, we say the time heals all the injuries.

"I can't tell you my whole past now but I can try to show you a piece of my feelings." Ohno whispered suddenly.
"Thank you, Ohno..." Nino said, a shadow of a smile appearing on his lips.
Ohno came into Sho's office and opened the cupboard. There were many films inside and Ohno grabbed one of it, shaking his head to erase his tears. He walked to their bedroom and put the video in the player before grabbing Sho's pillow.
"What is it?" Nino asked.
"Our last film, it was on Sho's birthday. There were all of our friends and Jun with their mother. She is very kind. When Sho told her about our relationship, she didn't reject her son or hate me, she smiled and told us to be happy and care of each other, she was like a second mother for me, we were very close." Ohno answered.
"And his father?"
"Sho's father was more severe. At the beginning, he didn't accept me. But with time he saw Sho was really happy when we were together and gave up. His son was from Keio and had a very important job, so, why couldn't he choose the person of his life? He said that to me one day and since then we were accepted by the whole family and treated like a normal couple." Ohno explained, softly.

Nino looked at the screen. There was Sho's family, his younger brother and his parents. Aiba was next to Jun, laughing about something and Ohno on Sho's lap, his head against his chest. Sho stroked his arm, laying lovely kisses on Ohno's head. They were a beautiful couple and seemed very happy together. When they looked at each other, you could see love in their eyes and Nino felt a little jealous seeing this perfect love. Sho was a very gorgeous man with his short hair and his cute full mouth. His short sleeved t-shirt showed the muscles on Sho's arms, who seemed so protective that Ohno looked like a princess in his arms. When the mother brought the cake, Ohno had a bright smile. The young couple laughed together, sharing accomplice smiles and kisses. Sho blew on the candles and everybody clapped their hands. After many gifts, Ohno gave a little box to Sho. When he opened it, Nino saw a beautiful chain bracelet in silver. There was an inscription on it but Nino couldn't read it.

"More than my own life." Ohno said, seeming to read his thought.
"Eh?"
"The inscription." Ohno answered.
Nino looked at the film. When Sho opened his present, he had a beautiful smile. He took Ohno's cheeks and caught his lips giving him the most beautiful and lovely kiss he had ever seen. They kissed each other for a long time before Jun said "that Ohno will is going to die if Nii-chan continued to prevent him from breathing" and all the family laughed, making Sho and Ohno blush. 
"He looked very nice." Nino said.
"He was the nicest man of the world." Ohno smiled.
"He seemed to love you so much!"
"Yes, he always said he loved me with all his soul." Ohno said, sadly.
"Wait, your friend said the same thing earlier?!"
"It's not a surprise, Sho said it all the time in front of him, I think Jun became like his brother, it's a good thing for Masaki, he deserves the same love that Sho gave me..."
"But you suffer when you hear it!" Nino protested.

Ohno thought for a minute and shook his head. "Just a little. These words are Sho's memory, when Jun shares it with Masaki, I'm happy because a part of his brother is still with us, in our hearts. It's painful but at the same time it's a sort of respect, I can see Sho's face when his brother says those words..." Ohno explained.
Nino sighed. Even if Ohno said that, he could feel the pain crossing his broken heart when he heard this sentence. Why did the older want to be so strong? Why couldn't he reveal his heart to someone? Plus, Nino knew the sleepy man was hiding something else inside him. He never spoke about Sho's death. There was a shadow, a frightening shadow behind this day and the idol promised to himself that one day he will discover the truth and return his bright smile to Ohno.
the following night had been very horrible; Ohno had a lot of nightmares and cried in his sleep. Nino was afraid how the older suffered, he wanted to do something but didn't know what. This Ohno was so different than the first time he had met him, he seemed having lot of demons in his life, haunting him.

"You kept me awake all night." Nino reproached in the morning.
"Sorry." Ohno apologized with a sleepy face.
"I want a milk coffee." The younger ordered.
"But I don't like it!" Ohno protested.
"I don't care, make this coffee!"

Nino was happy, Ohno began to share his feelings, it was just a little but the idol knew that soon Ohno will talk more, he just had to be patient.
Ohno sighed and did the coffee. The idol blabbered all the time and at the end of the day, Satoshi was more tired than he was used to and when he arrived at his apartment, he ran to take a bath, sighing happily when he felt the hot water.

“Aahhh, so good!” Ohno sighed.
"It's too hot." Nino groaned.
"No, it's perfect,” replied Ohno. “I'm so tired!"
"You're always tired."  Nino laughed.
"Hum..."
"But it suits you." Nino whispered.
"Thank you." Ohno smiled.
After one hour, he got out of the bath and took a towel.
"Humm, you really have a beautiful butt." Nino commented.
"Hey! Don't look at my body!" Ohno exclaimed, hiding himself.
"It's too late, I've already see everything.” Nino laughed. "I love your body and your junior is not bad!"
"Shut up!" Ohno blushed.
"Oi, it's a compliment!" Nino replied.
"Yes, but you have no right to look at it, you're such a pervert!"
"And you, you are bored!" Nino pouted.
Ohno ignored the younger put his pajama on, lied on the bed and closed his eyes.
"Why do you keep his stuff?" Nino asked.
"Because I hope he could come back." Ohno explained.
"But he is dead."
"Yes but I can't accept it, I can't accept the reality, it's too hard to throw his stuff away..."
"You can't continue to live with memories of him, you have to progress alone, now."  Nino whispered.
"And it's you who says that to me." Ohno chuckled, sadly.
"Then, don't give advice to others if you can't respect it." Nino snapped, coldly.
"Who are you to judge me? You are horrible with everybody and collecting women!" Ohno mumbled a little angry.
"You were the first who judged me!" Nino replied.
"No, I tried to help you because you seemed very sad!' Ohno answered.
"I know. I wanted you to know that I'm sorry for what I’ve said to you that day, I was horrible without knowing you really understood me." Nino whispered.
"Don't worry about that... How did your lover is die?" Ohno asked carefully but Nino didn't respond. A violent pain crossed his heart and even Ohno could feel it. "Nino?" Ohno asked, worried.
Suddenly, a flash appeared in Ohno's mind. There was blood, a lot of it. He ran in the woods trying to escape a frightening voice that yelled after him, "NINO!!!!!"
Ohno jumped. What was that?! He felt very bad, ran toward the toilet and threw up. When he saw his face on the mirror, terror invaded his whole body. His face was very white, his body was shaking and fear shone in his eyes.
"Nino? What happened?" Ohno asked.
"I... I'm sorry..." Nino stammered and the older knew all this feelings came from him.
After a while, he calmed down and the fear disappeared from his body. It was so real, so painful. Ohno still could hear the horrible voice in his head.
"Nino, tell me, please, what was it?" Ohno implored.
"I'm sorry... I can't speak about that, it's too painful..." Nino apologized.
"But..."
"Please, no more!" Nino cried.
Ohno frowned but gave up. He ate his curry and looked at the sky. The storm was very violent outside, the rain that was hitting the windows was making frightening noises.
"Shit, I forgot Jun!" Ohno exclaimed, smacking his forehead. He took his phone and called his friend.
"Sorry, I've completely forgotten our meeting, I'm there in 5 minutes!" Ohno apologized before hanging up.
"Wait... Where are we going?" Nino asked, panicked.
"At the club, Jun is waiting for me." Ohno explained, taking his shoes.
"STOP!" Nino yelled, making Ohno froze.
"What?"
"You can't... Don't go outside, please... It's dangerous with the storm..." Nino began.
"No, it's ok, don't worry."
"Ohno!!!! Please, don't go outside!" Nino shouted.
"Listen, Jun waits for me, I have to go." Ohno tried to calm him down.
He opened the door and ran under the rain. Nino started to panic. No. Not the storm. He hated the storm! Suddenly, there was a big flash and Nino screamed. Ohno froze, a pain and a wave of fear crossed his heart again. He fell on the ground, holding his head while Nino continued to scream. Ohno gasped before fainting.
"Yusuke!!!!!" Satoshi cried before all become dark.

***
Ohno opened his eyes. He was lying on the grass in a mysterious place. When he stood up, he saw he was in a forest. There were lot of trees and he jumped when he heard two voices. Slowly, he moved toward them and blinked. Two men were lying on the grass. It was a strange place, without trees and a big lawn. Ohno's look returned to the men. They were naked, one of them on top of the other, moving fast. Moans escaped their mouths and Ohno understood immediately they weren't played Monopoly. The second man had his face buried in the other's neck, his body moved to meet the movements of his partner. Ohno blushed deeply but when he wanted to leave the place, one of the lovers moaned and his voice made Ohno freeze.
"YU!" The man cried.
"Gosh, yeah, baby, you're so tight, so perfect!" His lover gasped.
"Yu!" The man gasped.
"Fuck, I can't... Come with me Kazunari!" His lover cried before both came at the same time. The man collapsed on the ground and Ohno saw their faces. He didn't know the first man but jumped when he recognized the second.

Nino...

To be continued....