Alive (6/?)

[matsuaurore]

Title: Alive
Author: matsuaurore
Pairings: Sakumoto
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: They belong to me but just in my dreams T.T
Summary: He was everything to me. My joys, my pains, my life. He was my everything, my half. But what can you do when the love you feel is also the forbidden?
What can you do when you have to push away what keeps you alive?


Chapter 6:


Sho's pov:


Jun was hiding me something. I could see it in his eyes anytime he was saying everything was fine, he avoided my look. I hated that. Jun was someone who always said the truth and never lied but for several weeks, I knew his reassuring smiles were fake. But what was wrong? Did he hate me? Did he feel as if I was forcing him in this relationship? Didn't he love me anymore? I didn't understand his behavior and tried to find what was wrong.

And I guessed I found it. Or at this time, I thought it was just because of that. I discovered too late why my little brother was acting like that.

"Shit, I think I've forgotten my notebook." I groaned as I was opening my bag.
"Which one?" Hana asked. We were working on our next exam and I had planned to break up with her just after not to make her fail.
"Economy. Maybe Masaki has it as he was sick the last week." I stood up and took my keys.
"I'll wait for you here." Hana smiled.

I nodded and left my bedroom. Of course, I entered Jun's bedroom and saw him working on his lessons with an amazing concentrate face. He really was made to be a doctor. I knew this middle was his life at the way he was talking about it with shining eyes.

"Jun?" Jun jumped a bit and turned his head toward me, smiling softly.
"Nii-chan?"
"I have to go to Masaki's house because he has my notebook. I let you for some minutes, if you need something, Hana is in my bedroom."Sadness filled his eyes and my brother nodded softly.
"Hey. What's wrong?" I approached him to stroke his cheek.
"Nothing. Be careful on your way." Jun forced a smile again.
"Baby, in two weeks, everything will be over with Hana." I whispered.
"I know."
"What's wrong, then?"
"I hate imagining her with you." Jun mumbled.
"I won't sleep with her. In fact, the last time we did it was just before we made love for the first time together." I smiled, Jun blushing deeply at this thought.
"Okay."
"Just a little more and it will be just the two of us." I kissed him softly.
"Hun." Jun grinned and I left, blowing him a kiss and making him giggle.

I drove quickly to Masaki's house not to let Jun alone too much. Because I didn't trust Hana to watch over Jun. In fact, I didn't trust anybody or maybe just Nino and Aiba because they knew for us and loved Jun.


"Sho-kun?"
"Hello, Hiroshi-kun, does Masaki is here?"
"Of course, come on in." Hiroshi smiled. I followed him toward Masa's bedroom where friend was reading, only wearing a boxer, the sign I was disturbing him in his activities.
"Oh, Sho-chan, it's you!" Aiba smiled.
"I'm deeply sorry for interrupting your activities." I threw an eye on Hiroshi who blushed.
"Don't worry, we hadn't started yet." Aiba said kindly. My dear Masaki, you are so sweet but a so bad liar as I can see a bulge in your boxer.
"Baby?" Hiroshi followed my look.
"Hun?"
"Cover your lower part." Aiba looked down and screamed, putting the sheets on his hard member.
"I just need my notebook that's all." I said, trying not to laugh loudly.
"Don't laugh!" Aiba pouted. "On my desk."
"Thank you!" I grabbed it.
"How is Jun?"
"Well, I guess." Aiba frowned at my face.
"We'll talk about it tomorrow."
"Okay, bye and have fun!" I smirked and ran away from the bedroom which smelt already sex.

I entered the house, ready to call Hana when I heard two voices yelling. Frowning, I climbed the stairs silently and saw Jun's bedroom wide open.

"What did I tell you several weeks ago?!" My eyes widened when I saw Hana looking at Jun with killing eyes.
"I... I..."
"You what?! I told you not to annoy Sho again?! Why can't you stay away from him, freak!!!"
"I can't help the fact Sho likes to spend time with me." Jun said with a little voice.
"Stop then! Stay away from him!"
"But..." Jun put his hand on his throat, starting to breath with difficulty, a big tear rolling down his cheek.
"See, you're just a disgusting freak who should die!!! You're just a shit, stay away from Sho, he is so much better than you!!!" Hana snapped, grabbing him by the hair and making him whimper.

I entered the bedroom, Jun's eyes widening and grabbed Hana's wrist.


"What, Sho?!" I pushed her away and slapped her roughly. I wasn't someone who liked violence or who hit girls but nobody had the right to hurt and touch Jun!
"Get out!!" I yelled, taking Jun's inhalator and wrapping him in my arms.
"It's not what you think." Hana implored.
"Nobody has the right to touch or hurt my brother! Now, get out and don't ever come back or I swear I'll punch you this time!!" I screamed, throwing her a look that made her shiver in fear.
"You'll pay for that!" Hana snapped before leaving.
"Sh-o." Jun panted with difficulty, his hand grabbing my shirt tightly.
"Calm down, baby, I'm here." I whispered, rocking him in my arms.
"It h-urts..." I stared at Jun with shocked eyes. He was barely breathing, his hand gripping his shirt.
"Jun, baby, please, calm down." I implored.
"I ca-n't..." Jun panted, taking his inhalator again before laying on the bed.
"I'll call the firemen."
"N-o." Jun gripped my shirt.
"But Jun..."
"I nee-d y-ou... Sta-y wi-th m-e." Jun begged.
"Okay okay." I wrapped him in my arms, feeling his so quick heartbeat and his body shaking. After what felt like hours, Jun finally calmed down, starting to breath normally again. "How long?" I asked after some minutes.
"Eh?"
"Since when was she treating you like that?"
"It's not important." Jun whispered.
"Of course it is!" I stood up abruptly, anger growing on my face.
"Since the beginning but it got worse when we started to be together." Jun lowered his head, ashamed.
"And you never told me?!"
"I knew you would react like that."
"Of course I would have!!! The girl I'm dating for two years was bullying you and you never told me!!! What did she do exactly?!"
"I..." Tears started to roll down his cheeks.
"Oh no, Jun, don't start, it won't work this time. Tell me now!" I hit the wall next to me, making him jump.
"She just asked me to stay away from you and threatened me." Jun whispered.
"Why didn't you tell me?!"
"Not to worry you. And also... I knew you would be angry..." Jun sobbed.
"Oh, Jun!" I rushed toward him and wrapped him in my arms. "Don't hide me such important things like that again."
"I'm sorry." Jun cried against my neck.
"I want to protect you but I can't if you lie to me."
"But I want to be stronger."
"I can be strong enough for two. You don't need to be strong, I'm here to protect you."
"But..."
"I'm here. Don't hide me things like that again. Please, Jun."
"Okay." Jun finally sighed.
"And I'm sorry for yelling and scaring you." I kissed his wet cheek softly.

But what I didn't know was the fact he was hiding me other things worse than this story with Hana.

****

"Sho!" I jumped, hearing my father calling me. It wasn't a good thing when he wanted to talk to me. Sighing, I kissed Jun's lips and stood up, taking a boxer and a tee-shirt. We had made love the whole night and I was just exhausted and empty but felt happy after all the amazing hours we had spent together. I joined the living room, followed by Jun who was also worried about this call.

"Yes?"
"Get your luggage’s ready, your plane will be tomorrow morning."
"Eh?"My eyes widened in shock.
"You're leaving for America. You'll work with a friend of mine who will teach you everything."
"I don't want to go."
"I don't need your agreement, you'll go." My father replied coldly.
"Why?! I'm the best student of Keio, why have I to leave?!"
"Because it will be better for you to learn everything there."
"Can I go with him?" Jun suddenly asked.
"No, Jun. Your exams are in several weeks and you have to succeed if you want to be a doctor."
"I don't want to let Nii-chan go!" Jun snapped, hugging my waist.
"You don't have the choice."
"I won't leave Jun." I growled.
"Listen Sho, if you want to become someone, I give you an advice, obey me or your career will never start. It's just for one year and after, you'll come back here and will be free to have your own apartment."

My own apartment?

"Will Jun be allowed to live with me. I want to help him to be on the top."
"If you wish to." My father shrugged.
"Okay. Then, I'll go."
"Sho!!!" Jun protested and I grabbed his hand to lead him upstairs.

"You promised you would never leave me!!! You're a liar!!" Jun cried.
"Listen to me, Jun." I made him sit on the bed and took his hands. "I don't want to leave you but if I don't go, father won't allow me to become a lawyer and I need it to take care of you."
"I don't need you to take care of me!! I will be a doctor!"
"Jun, have you heard dad? I know if I refuse he will prevent you to become a doctor and will force you to take his company. Do you really want to take his business?"
"No but..."
"It's just for one year, honey. And after, we will live together and will be able to act like a couple. Isn't it wonderful?" I grinned.
"But one year is so long..."
"I'll come back for all the vacations, I promise. I know it's hard but we have all our life to be together, one year is nothing."
"It means you won't miss me?"
"Of course I will! But I'm doing the best thing for us. After, we will never be separated again. Never." I hugged him tightly, knowing I was playing the strong brother because one year without Jun would feel like twenty.

We spent our last day together. I brought him to the amusement park for Jun's happiness. My brother had always loved these kinds of place. It was good to see him laughing and screaming when we were on the attractions.

"Sho-chan, the big wheel!" Jun showed me with a big smile.
"Okay okay." I chuckled, following him toward it.

We climbed inside at the good moment as the sun was starting to fall, giving us amazing colors, orange, red and yellow. Jun looked at the landscape excitedly, his eyes shining with the colors of the sky.

"Jun?"
"Hun?" Jun turned his head with questioning eyes.
"I wanted to give you something." I held him a purple box.
"What is it?"
"Something you'll have for when I'll be in America. And to show you are mine." Jun frowned curiously and opened the box, his eyes widening. "No matter what, I'll be here for you. Even if I'm in another country, I'll come back if you need me. I will never really leave you, Jun."
"It's beautiful." I smiled and sat next to him to tie the silver necklace around his neck, the linked 'S' and 'J' shining with the sun. "I'll never take it off."
"I hope so." I stroked his cheek and kissed him deeply, enjoying the taste of his lips against mine for the last moments before I would have to leave. I hated it. I hated knowing I would have to leave him alone here but I didn't have the choice. And I knew Aiba and Nino would take care of him. Or at least, I prayed for it.
"Thank you for this amazing day." Jun grinned.
"And it's not over, we still have the whole night together." I whispered, making him blush.

We ate together in a restaurant, I wanted to spend as much time as possible before my start for America. Just the thought of it broke my heart but it was the best thing to do for both. And I would still be able to see Jun for Christmas. I was already missing him when I was still in Japan.

When we came back home at 1 a.m, the house was dark, our parents sleeping deeply. I started to strip Jun at the second we took off our shoes, not able to join my bedroom. I kissed every part of him, sucked his skin so hard that bright red marks appeared on his pale body. We managed to climb the stairs but on the top, we lost our balance and I fell on him with a giggle.

"Sho... I can't wait anymore..." Jun implored. I kissed him deeply and entered him slowly not to hurt him too much with the lack of preparations.
"Jun... You feel so good..." I moaned against his lips, moving deeply and slowly, my brother's nails sinking in my shoulder.
"Don't stop... Sho... Harder..." Jun begged, his heels pushing on my butt. I thrusted harder and faster, devouring his neck as I was trying not to pant too loud, my muscles contracting at every effort.

Suddenly, we heard a noise and froze.

"W..."
"Shhhh."I put my hand on Jun's mouth and soon we saw our father's shadow passing in the corridor to go to the restrooms. I kept my hand on Jun's mouth and started to thrust again, not able to wait longer. Jun moaned in my hand but I knew this dangerous situation was exciting him a lot and at the second our father joined his bedroom, I thrusted harder than ever, making Jun come quickly.
"You're a pervert." Jun blushed.
"Don't make me laugh, it excited you a lot." I smirked.
"Sho?"
"Hun?"
"Can you make love to me the whole night as it's our last time?"
"Of course but it's not the last time." I lifted him in my arms and carried him toward the living room.
"Not the bedroom?"
"Nah. I want to take you on dad's sofa, it will be my revenge for making me leave the country." I whispered.

And we spent the most intense night of our lives.

The next morning, Jun came with Masaki at the airport and I left him with difficulty, hating his calls and cries when I walked toward the luggage’s check. Tears started to roll down my cheeks when I sat in the plane, Jun's desperate calls still resounding in my head. I had to be strong, to handle this so horrible situation. I would see him in three months but it felt like an eternity.

And I wasn't expecting my world to collapse when I would come back to Japan.

To be continued...


A/N : So, many things happened here xD I’m happy Sho finally saw Hana’s real face and slapped her >< though, I have the feeling it’s not over with her ><
Now, Sho has to leave, I honestly didn’t plan that but things wanted to turn like that xD Jun will be alone now with Sho in America and will have to deal with lots of things, luckily, Aiba and Nino will be here for him J
Next chapter will be Jun’s POV ;)